It has been one year since Sarge was diagnosed with Osteosarcoma, and we began this unpredictable journey. From the very beginning, it seemed as if every decision was wrought with fear, uncertainty and indecisiveness.
“Do we amputate?”
“Do we just do radiation?”
“Will Sarge be able to handle the Chemo?”
“Are we doing the right thing?”
“How long will Sarge be with us?”
“Would he want to go through this if he had a choice?”
It seemed with every wince of pain, set back, or side effect of the chemo, I allowed myself to question the route we had chosen.
Now that we can look back on the last year, I can say without the slightest hesitation, that we made the right choice to amputate and start chemo. Without the complete support of our amazing veterinarian, Dr. Aaron Heintz DVM, family and friends, we could not have come this far!
There is not a day that goes by, that Sarge’s “hoppy” personality fails to impress upon me the significant level of joy he allows himself to live everyday. He never frets about when/if his cancer is coming back, he never worries about the next chemo treatment (he actually gets excited to go see his favorite veterinarian).
We have so much to learn from Sarge’s never faltering zest for life and just living in the moment.
Sarge has learned that cancer means: even more loving and cuddling than he ever experienced before, fast hopping propels more efficiently than a slow hop, people that were scared of him before because he was a “BIG dog!”, now approach and inquire as to why he is missing a leg and readily pet him, he gets grain free food (not that he knows what that means) but he knows he gets home cooked turkey, chicken, steak, fish, eggs, and extras like yogurt, coconut oil, peanut butter, and all kinds of special “yummies”, he gets tons of car rides and fire pit time; which is one of his favorite things in the world and he gets told “I love you” A LOT!
I pray we are blessed with another year, but I am learning from Sarge to live in the moment. I will be thankful for today, for the moment and for the memories!